more than meets the eye.

you havent felt the feeling of rock bottom until you have a few of your close friends tell you that youre going down the wrong road.
youve never been more confused about your life then at that moment.
youre stuck in a bubble of what you think of yourself and not caring what other people think.
youre in the bubble for so long, you become ignorant of the crapload of shit being spread about you.

when you just dont care what other people think of you, its still possible to have those moments where you let people's opinions dictate your life and how you feel.

im not gonna lie.
its tough shit to go through when you have people constantly spreading shit about you.
so that when you turn a corner, you hear someone talking crap, "oh yeah shes such a slut, no one really likes her. what an attention whore."
yeah it kinda gets to you.
especially when they know absolutely nothing about you.
everyone thinks they know your life story, but they honestly dont.
&it gets tiring after awhile when you hear people constantly saying, "oh you have so many guys all over you .. blah blah blah."

.. to be honest, i really dont.
im not a girl pimp, im not a hoe, im not a slut.
ive never been drunk in my life, im still a virgin.
stop spreading shit you dont know nothing about.
i havent hooked up with millions of guys.
i dont fall for guys easily.
in fact, i have a hard time trusting guys at all.
no, im not full of myself like i know a good few of you are.
i do have insecurities, i just try not to show them.
in reality, i actually have quite a few insecurities.

theres alot more to me than meets the eye,
so why dont you try getting to know me before you spread your shit.

even when most of you think you know me .. think again.