what a pain.

school sucks.
students are merely victims of the education hierarchy.
we are victims that get sucked into the torturous cycle of school.
we get lots of homework, which requires us to stay up late.
because we didnt get enough sleep, we end up fall asleep in class.
because we fell asleep in class, we didnt learn anything.
because we didnt learn anything, we fail our test.
because we failed our test, we need to study more to raise that grade.
because we need to study more, we stay up later.
DO YOU SEE THE INEVITABLE CYCLE OF TORTURE ?!

i do.

they complain about students falling asleep in school.
but whos fault is that ?
the student or the school curriculum ?
im always overloaded with work.
&i can only imagine what ap week will be like.
thanks to school, i basically dont have a life anymore.
&when i try to get out so i convince myself that i have friends,
i get screwed over for school.
gr.
something should be done about this.

now i realize that schools make attempts to lower our stress levels.
HAHA. AHAHAHA.
what bullshit !
omg so we get a little lecture about stress.
do they REALLY think thats going to help ?
i didnt think so.

&even when we DO get breaks from school,
we STILL get homework.
how messed up is that.
even during the summer !
they assign us homework.
how the hell is that possible !
*sigh* i really dont get it.


anyway,
i want to stop talking about school.
it sickens me.
lately ive been having to do some deep thinking.
have you ever had that feeling,
where you thought you knew what the right decision ?
then suddenly, you dont know what happened,
but something changed and youre back to where you started ?
yep, thats me.
i thought i knew what i wanted,
but then idk what happened, but now i dont know what i want anymore.
on the one side, hes really sweet and nice and caring.
on the other side, hes fun to talk to & we get along reeeeally well.
bleh.
i know ive said this multiple times,
but i really should deeply consider becoming a nun.
my life would be so much less complicated.
lol did that sentence make sense ?
i hope so.
but it would. my drama would like cease to exist & all id have to worry about is not having sexual thoughts when i become a nun.
LOLL.

i think i could do it.
even if none of you would have faith in me, hahaha.

til i write next time,
ponder on these words:

"the reason you cant get over someone, is because you havent found someone better."
--credit goes to phil`s teacher haha.

whether they are true or not, that is your decision//opinion.