ugh.

so basically i feel like crap right now.

ive had these stomach aches that come & go frequently,
&i have no idea why.
it sucks, ill tell you that much.

next off,
i hate school.
i hate finals.
i hate grades.
it feels so useless to me & it only causes me constant stress.
i also hate asian parents.
they take over waay too much in their childs life.

so my fcking dad thinks that one of my friends is on crack.
like wtf, what kind of conversation starter is that.
then he starts questioning me asking me if i ever tried drugs.
then of course i say i havent.
then he gets all anal on my ass saying,
'oh well i want to believe you,
but youve lied to me before.'

... PLEASE. ANYONE that knows me well enough,
KNOWS i dont do drugs.
&my own family cant even tell ?
god it just gets me so pissed off.
now hes getting all asian on me & overprotective.
SIGHH.

next,
please dont try to lie to me & tell me that you dont have a girlfriend.
im not stupid, & i have my sources.
so dont think that you can get away with not telling me you have one
and then try flirting with me.
its not gonna work, cause thats not how i do.
if you want to cheat on your girlfriend,
go find some slut to do it with, but not me.


next, [i realize i keep repeating this word ..]
dont fuck with my emotions.
either you like me or you dont.
or youre interested.
but whatever it is,
dont say something like
"omg i really miss you, i want to be with you, etc."
THEN have the nerve to say something like,
"oh, i like you too, i suppose."
sigh.
i really dont know what you want from me,
but whatever it is, please tell me.
i can only figure out so much.
im not trying to bitch you out or anything.
i just .. idk.
i need to think things over still.

i just wrote this cause i was in a bad mood & my stomach hurts.
&for those that read these,
dont take them seriously.
it is just simply for me to vent my worries for the day.
dont think im this pissed off 24/7 lol.

to end on a better note,
the kiwins dance was hella funn &
i sooo cant wait til penn formal(X

more than anything,
i just need more days to get away from everything,
&oh idk, head to the park, go on the swings, gaze at stars.
.. /: